Aleksei
Thots.
by , 11-08-2011 at 02:23 PM (305 Views)
Just recently I've been trying to keep myself occupied with many things. Most of you can tell I'm in a bunch of roleplays and from time to time I'll pump out a few signatures while keeping up with my posts. My recent spike has been because this is my way of dealing with other things that are on my mind. Most of you know that Rob and I placed our child up for adoption and she will be one fairly soon this month. I've only been able to cope with it for about a month or so. It's really something that we don't talk about, not because we don't want to, but it's a hard subject.
With Rob training more often I don't get to see him as much, and if you ask him I've been a brat ;x , having a really hard time to deal with not having someone with me on a constant basis. I had gotten so used to having my baby all day and all night for nine months, and then have her for about a day or two and then after that not at all. Then Rob being around a whole bunch as he would just train about two days a week, but now he trains about five days a week right after work. So! I've been trying to occupy myself with other thangs. I work toooo~ But I specifically take Mon. - Wed. off to do stuff like posts and gfxs, also clean house or be lazzzyy! So the days I work keep me on my toes and fills those moments where I honestly have nothing to really do. I really don't have many friends beyond those at work and some acquaintances; being busy with work to pay off medical bills and really just being comfortable staying home.
At some point I do plan on leaving the graphic team to free up some time on my plate or I may just do signatures and nothing more. I really just want to concentrate on my posts and actually get to know people on the forum. This is also a choice because I don't want to have to cross paths with someone I don't like. I don't have shame in being a coward whatsoever, I just have shame in letting another person speak to me like I'm nothing - be it a joke or not.
Roleplay isn't the only thing that has kept me occupied. We just recently moved back into my mom's house so we can help her with stuff and really start saving up. I've been picking at a few things around the house like pealing off paint on the walls, fixing our bathtub in our room, and cleaning the basement. I wanna start baking stuff because I fucking love baking. omg man, baking. With Thanksgiving and Christmas it gives me a chance to show off my baking skills =DD!!! Cookies, candy, all that fun stuff, just makes me feel all giddy and happy. And with my work we have those two days off so I can actually make a bunch of stuff, especially since we're back with the mom and I can put money into that activity.
Just things that keep my sane! I like feeling busy, useful. What makes you guys feel this way? IS IT BAKING? WE CAN SHARE RECIPES OR SOMETHIN YO.
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