Cale was touched, startled by the perspective the woman shared with him. He always saw his past as something to be ashamed of, to hide and lock away from the world. But could it be that his self-persecution was what kept him distant from the people? For the first time in his life, Cale wondered whether people could actually accept him without judging him for his past problems. Such a thing, he'd never considered reasonable...the fear of people getting too close to him was always something he had in mind. Now, though, the prospect of letting down that shell was something he saw as so inviting.
The truth was, he didn't want to live alone. He often thought of himself as a wicked monster, as someone that couldn't be loved by others. He felt that the stains of his sins stuck to his body like glue. Pushing people away just made life easier. He didn't fear being rejected, and being an outcast was okay, so long as he told himself it was by choice. Even though being alone made his life easier to accept, it made things harder to change. He wanted happiness, and he was starting to understand that you can't find happiness by chaining yourself to your past, or putting labels on yourself. Here was a girl who accepted him, who wanted to be near him...in the world of his self-loathing, this was an impossibility. She didn't live by his standards, though. To her, he was someone special...it seemed that the only one keeping Cale from his happiness, was himself.
Cale could only nod as he reached out, placing his hand on the young woman's. Tilting his head, he smiled honestly for what felt like the first time in his life. He wasn't going to settle for being alone. He wasn't going to accept his lonely life as being the way things were. He wouldn't bind himself to the burdens and mistakes of his life. No, Cale decided that from then on, he'd pursue what made him happy. He wouldn't hold himself back from a better life, any longer.
"Thank you." he said softly, his eyes staring serenely into hers...the two simple words, holding a deeper meaning than she'd probably ever realize.




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