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    Hurttoto reacted to Chappu for a status update, Hello Sadness, my old friend, we have been here at this point time and time again...   
    Hello Sadness, my old friend, we have been here at this point time and time again... This time you dug a deeper hole and I tripped right into it... Like Alice in Wonderland I curious just how far this sensation will go. How long will it take me to climb out of this void of self? I figured I'd be okay, that somehow being justified and right in my actions would in some way ease my burden!! As if these tears would stop hitting my cheeks like thunderclaps as I shoulder on to continue. I strictly remember making a pact to never cry over the same thing again, but why am I here? Crying for the same reason so many times in a row, nothing on me really broke but my peace of being. I rescued my heart but why does it still feel so broken?
    I can feel my spine through my stomach, a pit has settled into my core. I am a black hole devouring all things now, seeking to find meaning to this space now set free.
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    Hurttoto reacted to Vansin for a status update, If you roleplay in Terrenus, please read this announcement: recently, we at Coth fini   
    If you roleplay in Terrenus, please read this announcement: recently, we at Coth finished the first canonized arc of our town’s history which climaxed with a miraculous phenomenon that was witnessed by all of Terrenus. Though we specified no exact date, one morning your character might have awoken to see the very sun above them, for about ten minutes one fateful day, shining a deep emerald green in the sky instead of its usual color.
    I make this announcement publically not only because I’m extremely proud of our effort to create this miraculous change (over 9 pages of writing!) but because it was meant to show the world that little Coth exists and that its god has incredible powers worth taking notice of. 
    I’d be personally delighted to explain more to anyone who wants to reach out to me, and I hope you spare a moment in your next Terrenus thread to incorporate this nationwide phenomenon!
    Thanks! And merry Cothmas to you and yours!
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    Hurttoto got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, Why qre the threads so quiet? Where did everyone go? Hello?? *echos*   
    Why qre the threads so quiet?
    Where did everyone go?
    Hello?? *echos*
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    Hurttoto reacted to Chappu for a status update, I'm not sure how this happened, I don't know what went wrong but I surely followed th   
    I'm not sure how this happened, I don't know what went wrong but I surely followed those red flags to freedom. When did the relationship get so toxic to the point I had to tell you to get out. As amazing as you are you did horrible things to me and I still begged to love you in hopes you would change your ways. Trying to be the older partner and help you learn instead of letting life's banhammer have its way with you. 
    You spit in my face repeatedly then asked me to give you the world when you did not deserve it. No matter the proclamation of your efforts you never tried to get things done until you had to do it yourself. When I cleaned my hands of taking care of the world you suddenly became what I asked of you beforehand, but too little too late for that now. Lack of honesty and disrespect that causes me to question loyalty are not what I need in this life. Even in my flaws of said 'toxic' behavior, I amended everything you asked of me but it was you who never chose to listen and take the equal steps. So please, by all means, I will wish you the best, I harbor no negative emotion because at the end of the day, no matter what you say the reality is you did nothing that you say you did. Go claim what you can to ease your soul but the facts will remain and the truth will out. 
    I wish you be best life going back to the toxic waters I fished you out from out of love and hoping for your growth. I am honored that you thanked me for treating you better than the rest of the people who abused you, I have no energy to give you a reality check on your twisted self-image that is no longer my burden to bear, life will have you now. I've climbed out of these trenches to save myself from drowning in the waters that you made to make me unstable to become myself again.  No matter, the times of change are upon us and my hands and arms can no longer carry the weight which should have been handled by you.
    So to you, I offer up wishes of peace between the inhale and the exhale may your roads be what you need to grow. May you find people who will build you and teach you what you wouldn't learn from me. I pray for your safety and that at the end of the day you regret nothing. I do not wish our paths to cross again, but maybe they will. If they should I pray you have grown to be a strong intelligent and wise young woman.
    I can finally go as I need to go and grow as I need to be, I will hold no reserves of these emotions. To do so would forbid me from being free.
    Peace...
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    Hurttoto reacted to Thotification for a status update, The Mistress dies at Shawnee. The Blackspear cartel is dead. 🤣   
    The Mistress dies at Shawnee. The Blackspear cartel is dead.🤣
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    Hurttoto reacted to Gloxie for a status update, Finally got a new phone OwO OnePlus 6, I gotta say, it's a very nice phone   
    Finally got a new phone OwO OnePlus 6, I gotta say, it's a very nice phone
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    Hurttoto reacted to The Only Lucifer for a status update, Is anyone there?   
    Is anyone there?
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    Hurttoto reacted to supernal for a status update, What’s my post making you think about?   
    What’s my post making you think about?
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    Hurttoto got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, Alright so pretty soon ill make my own family royal houses I guess Also mayor positio   
    Alright so pretty soon ill make my own family royal houses
    I guess
    Also mayor positions will be opened
    As election day for the mayoral positions is coming in 2 weeks (as of tomorrow 
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    Hurttoto got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, Alright so pretty soon ill make my own family royal houses I guess Also mayor positio   
    Alright so pretty soon ill make my own family royal houses
    I guess
    Also mayor positions will be opened
    As election day for the mayoral positions is coming in 2 weeks (as of tomorrow 
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    Hurttoto got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, You came back from your trip?   
    You came back from your trip?
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    Hurttoto got a reaction from danzilla3 for a status update, Oil Yum Taste good   
    Oil
    Yum
    Taste good
     
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    Hurttoto reacted to Thotification for a status update, Going AFV for at most three days. Surprise family trip totally came out of nowhere. 😢   
    Going AFV for at most three days. Surprise family trip totally came out of nowhere. 😢
    Feel free to skip me, if it's my turn.
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    Hurttoto reacted to -Lilium- for a status update, Thank you for all the likes! ❤️   
    Thank you for all the likes! ❤️
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    Hurttoto reacted to paradigm for a status update, Running a few days behind on posts due to Halloween stuff with the kids and new respo   
    Running a few days behind on posts due to Halloween stuff with the kids and new responsibilities at work. Most of my posts are 1/2 written on my phone, just need to square away and hour or so to finalize them.
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    Hurttoto reacted to Twitterpated for a status update, I won't get heavily into details about it, but I am working on getting caught up with   
    I won't get heavily into details about it, but I am working on getting caught up with current plot and starting the new plot that needs to be had as quickly as possible. Not that I'm super fast to reply to begin with, my activity has suffered a bit thanks to being overwhelmed by newfound family in myself with things coming clearer by the passing days. Long story short, I was adopted as a baby and have now gotten really close to finally discovering my biological parents. 
    Bare with me though folks, I'm pushing! 
    Plus Ultra!
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    Hurttoto reacted to princeben07 for a status update, Don';t THINK that I don't SEE you Otto!!! Benny   
    Don';t THINK that I don't SEE you Otto!!!
     
    Benny
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    Hurttoto reacted to Alexei for a status update, Thanks for the like!   
    Thanks for the like!
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    Hurttoto got a reaction from Twitterpated for a status update, Jinsoku=thicc   
    Jinsoku=thicc
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    Hurttoto reacted to Gloxie for a status update, 2 weeks until I will meet my boyfriend for the first time in person   
    2 weeks until I will meet my boyfriend for the first time in person
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    Hurttoto reacted to Rin for a status update, Thanks for the like ❤️   
    Thanks for the like  ❤️
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    Hurttoto reacted to Twitterpated for a status update, I'm confident to say I'm caught up on most of my activity. I have at least one more n   
    I'm confident to say I'm caught up on most of my activity. I have at least one more new thread to start, but anything already running is not quite waiting on me as of this moment. Anything else new, lore oriented, or solo play will soon follow on completion. Gotta finish closing up them loose ends.
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    Hurttoto reacted to Twitterpated for a status update, Okay, enough yard work for me for now. Shower, then I try to find my stride again. I'   
    Okay, enough yard work for me for now. Shower, then I try to find my stride again. I'll announce when I'm finished, and if I owe you a post still, I'll get to it. 
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    Hurttoto reacted to Twitterpated for a status update, Okay, the storm is moving out by now. DOT days roads should be clear by tomorrow morn   
    Okay, the storm is moving out by now. DOT days roads should be clear by tomorrow morning. Hopefully I'll be home tomorrow or the next day, and hopefully we'll have power. 
    I've been wanting to do some writing while away, but that hasn't happened between enjoying my pops and catering to my little's and my wife. 
    I'll be back soon though, don't worry. Y'all stay frosty. 
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    Hurttoto reacted to princeben07 for a status update, wait, Garion was online? DAMMIT!!!! Im NEVER going to catch him!!! Benny   
    wait, Garion was online? DAMMIT!!!!
     
    Im NEVER going to catch him!!!
     
    Benny
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