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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from supernal for a status update, Anyone feel like taking up a random and sort of unique role for a one time role play   
    Anyone feel like taking up a random and sort of unique role for a one time role play (with the potential of becoming a long term character in Orisian Politics)? It's for a thread that King and I are working on. PM for details!
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from supernal for a status update, Anyone feel like taking up a random and sort of unique role for a one time role play   
    Anyone feel like taking up a random and sort of unique role for a one time role play (with the potential of becoming a long term character in Orisian Politics)? It's for a thread that King and I are working on. PM for details!
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Twitterpated for a status update, Dun forget our thread!   
    Dun forget our thread!
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Zashiii for a status update, Tom's Diner by Suzanne Vega will forever be one of my favorite heartbreak songs. Is t   
    Tom's Diner by Suzanne Vega will forever be one of my favorite heartbreak songs. Is there any song that better captures the sheer emotional scale of trying to move on? 
    I love it so much.
    It feels like a jewel in my treasure box of memories. I remember being a kid and loving it and not knowing what the hell it meant, but totally feeling like I understood it on this emotional level. This sort of fast, upbeat, catchy melody paired with the near monotone of her voice as she describes this seemingly uneventful moment in time -- durning which she is fucking drowning -- I felt that ache in my soul. I felt that before I ever fell in love and experienced heartbreak.
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Zashiii for a status update, Tom's Diner by Suzanne Vega will forever be one of my favorite heartbreak songs. Is t   
    Tom's Diner by Suzanne Vega will forever be one of my favorite heartbreak songs. Is there any song that better captures the sheer emotional scale of trying to move on? 
    I love it so much.
    It feels like a jewel in my treasure box of memories. I remember being a kid and loving it and not knowing what the hell it meant, but totally feeling like I understood it on this emotional level. This sort of fast, upbeat, catchy melody paired with the near monotone of her voice as she describes this seemingly uneventful moment in time -- durning which she is fucking drowning -- I felt that ache in my soul. I felt that before I ever fell in love and experienced heartbreak.
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Zashiii for a status update, Tom's Diner by Suzanne Vega will forever be one of my favorite heartbreak songs. Is t   
    Tom's Diner by Suzanne Vega will forever be one of my favorite heartbreak songs. Is there any song that better captures the sheer emotional scale of trying to move on? 
    I love it so much.
    It feels like a jewel in my treasure box of memories. I remember being a kid and loving it and not knowing what the hell it meant, but totally feeling like I understood it on this emotional level. This sort of fast, upbeat, catchy melody paired with the near monotone of her voice as she describes this seemingly uneventful moment in time -- durning which she is fucking drowning -- I felt that ache in my soul. I felt that before I ever fell in love and experienced heartbreak.
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Zashiii for a status update, I am hurting.   
    I am hurting. 
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Dolor Aeternum for a status update, Let's have an affaire 😶   
    Let's have an affaire 😶
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Dolor Aeternum for a status update, You're amazing, and I love you!   
    You're amazing, and I love you! 
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from princeben07 for a status update, I'm always tired. I miss not being tired. I wonder if I'll ever not be tired again.   
    I'm always tired.
    I miss not being tired.
    I wonder if I'll ever not be tired again.
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from princeben07 for a status update, I'm always tired. I miss not being tired. I wonder if I'll ever not be tired again.   
    I'm always tired.
    I miss not being tired.
    I wonder if I'll ever not be tired again.
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Zashiii for a status update, So come on Love, draw your swords... Shoot me to the ground. You are mine, I am yours   
    So come on Love, draw your swords...
    Shoot me to the ground.
    You are mine, I am yours...
    Let's not fuck around.
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Zashiii for a status update, So come on Love, draw your swords... Shoot me to the ground. You are mine, I am yours   
    So come on Love, draw your swords...
    Shoot me to the ground.
    You are mine, I am yours...
    Let's not fuck around.
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Arnau Dermont for a status update, When you finally see someone for who they really are. When you see how they glosses o   
    When you finally see someone for who they really are. When you see how they glosses over all of their faults, and essentially ignores the fact that they are a horrible individual -- that they cheat, that they lie, that they turn around and betray your trust, and that they have no concept of fidelity or honor -- and that they do all of this without any self awareness, for the sake of calling themselves the victim, I just have to wonder how I could ignore the signs for so long. Suddenly, the term dissolution makes so much more sense. 
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Rin for a status update, Wow, my posts are popular. ❤️   
    Wow, my posts are popular. ❤️
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Rin for a status update, Wow, my posts are popular. ❤️   
    Wow, my posts are popular. ❤️
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Twitterpated for a status update, Do you think we might make a small amendment to the thread you started for us? Rather   
    Do you think we might make a small amendment to the thread you started for us? Rather than say it happens directly after the first part of the event, could we say that it happens after the second? I intended to have Gabriela leave in the middle of the talks (which I believe your character is currently trying to get in on -- lol), but it seems like it might work out for the best if I just say she stuck it out until the end.
     
    Let me know what you think and I'll post accordingly. ❤️
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Twitterpated for a status update, heya, I just wanted to let you know that posting to you is still on my radar, I just   
    heya, I just wanted to let you know that posting to you is still on my radar, I just have to get out of the other thread first. Sorry for the delay. 
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Dolor Aeternum for a status update, So excited to write with Raylon again! Wait until Gabriela hears him referenced to as   
    So excited to write with Raylon again! Wait until Gabriela hears him referenced to as light....she'll steal the idea and start calling herself darkness! 
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    Pasion Pasiva reacted to Chappu for a status update, I remember when people used to make me happy just by existing. Now I am not happy abo   
    I remember when people used to make me happy just by existing. Now I am not happy about anything really. I can’t tell what makes me happy anymore. 
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Rin for a status update, I wrote as much as I could tonight. More posts tomorrow...   
    I wrote as much as I could tonight. More posts tomorrow...
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Rin for a status update, I wrote as much as I could tonight. More posts tomorrow...   
    I wrote as much as I could tonight. More posts tomorrow...
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from The Alexandrian for a status update, Nightmare: I walked into my living room where my son Owain was playing on the floor.   
    Nightmare: 
    I walked into my living room where my son Owain was playing on the floor. I was standing with someone, maybe a therapist. Everything is dark and there is that reflective movement of water dancing all around us. I look out the window and see a giant blue whale has swam up to us (yes, we are in our house, no I am not aware its a dream). I can see that the whale is looking at my child, stating intently at Owain, and then he shifts his head and I realize he is about to hit the glass. Behind me, I can *feel* the therapist wantings to tell me to calm down and wait to see what happens. She never does. I snatch my kid up and run down the hall way just as the glass on the window shatters and water rushes in. I run to our bedroom and shut the door behind us. Now we are in a dark room, and the window just shows us another dark room -- like a two way interview window for a holding cell. There are people in black talking, and then they all come out except for one person who is bound somehow. When the door is shut, they let out some dogs that immeidatly start attacking the person who was left behind in the room. We cant hear any of it, but we can see everything. I keep Owain's face pressed to my chest so he doesn't see. Everything changes. There is a woman, dressed all in black, who is bound to a wooden board with a metal horseshoe like thing around her neck. There's a man running a hose of water over her face, drowning her... I am both watching this as well as experiencing it as the woman who is being drowned. I cannot properly remember my vantage point, but I know that I saw the whole picture and felt the horror. I realized it was a dream and tried to concentrate on making myself breathe. I woke up gasping and needing my inhaler. The part about the whale and my son amd the therapist seems pretty obvious to me...the rest is just, I can't quite figure out. 
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from The Alexandrian for a status update, I love you!   
    I love you!
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    Pasion Pasiva got a reaction from Dolor Aeternum for a status update, Tonight's nightmare: I am in the kitchen with my mother. We are talking about somethi   
    Tonight's nightmare:
     
    I am in the kitchen with my mother. We are talking about something. She's being silly while washing the fishes. Its late, we have to go to bed. She goes to turn off the light, I panic while trying to get the flashlight mode on my phone to work, "Wait, wait -- don't turn off the lights yet!" She laughs and turns off the light. This is a game we've played. It's always lighthearted. But in my dream, I am terrified. At this point, I start to feel like it's a dream. There's no way I can't figure out my phone. I try to calm myself down, I try to figurw out my phone. I see my mother's outine in the dark, she is still being playful, she urges me to go to bed. I walk down the hall and my bedroom door opens, I see Nathan's outline, he asks what we are doing, we are being loud. I don't seem to be surprised that Nathan is there, so I am back to not knowing this is a dream. I walk down the hall to thw bathroom, Nathan follows, I am still desperately trying to figure out my phone, but now all I want is to turn on the bathroom light. The dark is unsettling me. I look up, Nathan is at the door, I see another outline behind him at the end of the hall. It rushes towards me. I am sure its a dream now, but I can't change it. I am trying to turn on the light. I am trying to calm myself down. I am no longer dreaming, but I can't move. Sleep paralysis. I go through my calming down ritual, I repeat the lords prayer, it helps keep me from thinking of the nightmare I just had while I am still stuck in sleep mode. When I wake up and open my eyes, I reach for my phone and turn on the light. My heart is beating hard and fast. Feels like its going to beat right out of my chest 
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