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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, My house is under contract. We signed the selling agreement on father's day, which is   
    My house is under contract. We signed the selling agreement on father's day, which is hilarious to me because I'm spiteful and mean. We close on July 21st. 
    I just want to say that I am very grateful for this space. For Valucre. I cannot stress how hard the past year has been, and I've generally stopped using Val as a place to vent after coming across comments that questioned my ability as a parent and even went so far as state that I was the sort of person who didn't deserve to be a mother. This was a long time ago, but these comments by someone totally irrelevant to me have stuck with me. It's probably because it's the same sentiment that my husband is constantly pushing on me. I wish people knew that it isn't as easy as they think it is to get a divorce and get custody of children when you are up against a highly intelligent and moderately wealthy individual, who believes in their heart that they too have their kids best interest at heart. It's just not black and white. Not to mention a total lack of family support, or rather support that looks like, "I know you think he's trying to hurt you, and if you're really that *unhappy* I guess you could leave him, BUT those poor boys will miss their daddy so much. I mean, maybe just don't drink anything he pours for you...maybe...but just in case anything does happen maybe you should have a testament or something that states your preference for the boys to stay with us rather than their father, you know, just in case." 
    Yup. That was a real conversation I had with my mother. 
    Anyway, I almost lost Val when things got really bad and dark. Oddly enough, this is where I made my stand. I don't have to be as present as I use to be. I don't have to give the things I don't have to give -- time, commitment, inspiration, writing. But this is still my little safe place. And I'm just really grateful because this last year would have been so much harder without this little corner on the internet. I know I can't fully explain it, or maybe it comes off as whining or attention-seeking, but this place means a lot me. So thank you for those of you who have been patient, and kind, and so gentle with me. I feel like there just might be a light at the end of this tunnel and a way out of this darkness I've been living in for years now.
    Thank you. 
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Tyler for a status update, Hey everyone, so I know you've all heard this from me before, but this time I'm afrai   
    Hey everyone, so I know you've all heard this from me before, but this time I'm afraid I'm pretty serious.
    Some of you may have seen a related statement or two from me already, or may just have noticed my general inactivity, but to make it clear to you all, I am ending my involvement in Canon Valucre. For one, I have largely lost interest in the canon world and process. My factions have gone as far as they're allowed to go (be it by the setting or my own personal limitations), and my characters either reached the end of their progression, or lack any avenue to be useful or interesting in the world going forward. And I'm just simply not interested in all the grind and post count requirements needed to adapt everything again.
    But more importantly, I just don't have the desire to devote the time to it anymore. The first time I tried to "leave", it was because I thought the situation at work was about to change and that it would affect my ability to RP reliably... well, things did change, only not in the way I expected. Rather than things suddenly getting busier and me being unable to find the time, COVID came around and caused our office to shift everyone to work-from-home (a change I absolutely love, by the way). As it turns out though, this change has sapped my RPing reliability considerably, but not due to lack of time or access. Rather, the availability of other activities to conduct in my free time has all but quashed any desire I might have had to try and rekindle the dimming fires of my canon characters and plots.
    That does not mean I have lost interest in RPing entirely. But the type of RPing I enjoy, the kind I cut my teeth on if you will, is not viable with the canon setting. I am in discussions with another person to set up an RP in the alternative section, and I have otherwise devoted time to doing quasi-tabletop/DnD type RPs in Discord servers. It is my plan to focus on those things with what time I allot to RPing.
    I only have two active RPs left here (and one inactive), and I fully intend to conclude them. For any of you who may have still been banking on any future plans with me though, I apologize. Hopefully I'm not leaving anyone high and dry, but I'm thinking I've already had discussions with anyone who I had any imminent plans with. Maybe I'll end up RPing with some of you again in the alternative RPs if they happen.
    Was tempted to wrap up the message all formal-like... but it's not like I'm leaving the site (at least not yet), so I'm just gonna leave it that.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Ataraxy for a status update, I FINALLY GOT AN INTERNSHIP AT A LAWFIRM! WHEW THAT WAS A SHAKY MONTH THERE *deflates   
    I FINALLY GOT AN INTERNSHIP AT A LAWFIRM! WHEW THAT WAS A SHAKY MONTH THERE *deflates*

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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Aliester Magna for a status update, What can I say? So far I got motivated to keep up with roleplaying and I'll do my bes   
    What can I say?  So far I got motivated to keep up with roleplaying and I'll do my best to offer a good experience for both me and the people who will join me.
     
    I salute you all and wish you a good day.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to vielle for a status update, Feeling a bit better now. There's the teensiest bit of sunshine peeking through the c   
    Feeling a bit better now. There's the teensiest bit of sunshine peeking through the clouds. 😂
    Hopefully will get all owed posts up by this weekend. To everyone I'm writing, thank you all for your continued patience—I'm getting there! 🙏
    Hope you all have a great day today. 💖
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to vielle for a status update, It's kinda difficult for me to escape into another world when my own is in chaos like   
    It's kinda difficult for me to escape into another world when my own is in chaos like this. 
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to King for a status update, I'm so close to the dream, but I can't go to sleep.   
    I'm so close to the dream, but I can't go to sleep.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Rabbit for a status update, Got some stuff coming up, so I won't be posting again till the 23rd or 24th.   
    Got some stuff coming up, so I won't be posting again till the 23rd or 24th.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Twitterpated for a status update, Day ran short before tonight's DnD session. I'll finish my post for the Time Stone Qu   
    Day ran short before tonight's DnD session. I'll finish my post for the Time Stone Quest tomorrow, then start on any other replies I owe. Stay safe y'all. 
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Atra'Lamia for a status update, RIP my beautiful and dearly missed friend 😥   
    RIP my beautiful and dearly missed friend 😥
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to vielle for a status update, “So therefore I dedicate myself, to my art, my sleep, my dreams, my labors, my suffer   
    “So therefore I dedicate myself, to my art,
    my sleep,
    my dreams,
    my labors,
    my sufferances,
    my loneliness,
    my unique madness,
    my endless absorption
    and hunger
    because I cannot dedicate myself to any fellow being.”

    ― Jack Kerouac
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to vielle for a status update, In this era of quarantines and lockdowns, @Csl and I are learning Tiktok dances to st   
    In this era of quarantines and lockdowns, @Csl and I are learning Tiktok dances to stave off lethargy. Wish us luck. 😘 😂
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, Illness and the general melancholy that had come with this social distancing has hit   
    Illness and the general melancholy that had come with this social distancing has hit me hard. I am dealing with the deep disappointment of family cancelling some very much needed visits (and the on set of guilt for feeling disappointed given what's going on) and mounting feelings of being a failure to my kids because I can't even take them outside to due to the heavy pollen and my pathetic lungs. Not to mention the fear of what all of this means to selling my home and getting back to CA. Sorry for not posting. I'll try harder. I care about writing, it's just hard right now.
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    Dolor Aeternum got a reaction from The Alexandrian for a status update, Stay safe and healthy everyone. More time at home means more time to post and also sp   
    Stay safe and healthy everyone. More time at home means more time to post and also spend time with your fam.
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    Dolor Aeternum got a reaction from supernal for a status update, Stay safe and healthy everyone. More time at home means more time to post and also sp   
    Stay safe and healthy everyone. More time at home means more time to post and also spend time with your fam.
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    Dolor Aeternum got a reaction from Csl for a status update, Stay safe and healthy everyone. More time at home means more time to post and also sp   
    Stay safe and healthy everyone. More time at home means more time to post and also spend time with your fam.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Sanonymous for a status update, Hey y'all, I'll be taking an indefinite AFV for a while now. I've been in a dark plac   
    Hey y'all, I'll be taking an indefinite AFV for a while now. I've been in a dark place and I need to turn my life a complete 180. Today's the last day I'm taking this shit, I need to succeed.
    Sorry to any RPs I've left behind, to those I've hosted as well. @Ataraxy, @Meraxa, @Metty, @-Lilium- and others who I may have forgotten to mention, I promise to pay you all back 10 fold when I come back 🙂 Sorry once again.
    Do wish me luck all, I hope for my sake, that you won't be seeing me anytime soon
    And that when I do come back, I'm a happier man 😄 
    Take care all, and catch you later.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to L u n a for a status update, Graphics shop is now open! Ready to accept orders! Yay!   
    Graphics shop is now open! Ready to accept orders! Yay! 
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Zashiii for a status update, Apologies for the delay....some family matters came up that needed priority..Will sta   
    Apologies for the delay....some family matters came up that needed priority..Will start catching up on owed posts this week ?
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to vielle for a status update, Happy New Year from our side of the world, everyone! Hope y'all are enjoying the fest   
    Happy New Year from our side of the world, everyone! Hope y'all are enjoying the festivities as we welcome a brand new decade. ? In the spirit of the season, I present my masterclass on how to run away from fireworks lit 10ft away from you. ? 

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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, I'm feeling better   
    I'm feeling better
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to vielle for a status update, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays, everyone! May your writing muse be blessed and al   
    Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays, everyone! May your writing muse be blessed and all your words be the right one, always. ??
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Malaysia NightReaver for a status update, Something wicked this way comes..   
    Something wicked this way comes..
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to vielle for a status update, Hello everyone, vielle here (again)! ? So: I'm a prodigal daughter on her way back ho   
    Hello everyone, vielle here (again)! ?
    So: I'm a prodigal daughter on her way back home. I just wanted to apologize to everyone for ghosting all those months ago—it's as @Csl has said: I've taken a leave of absence because I had to focus on stuff irl and also my mental health. Things haven't been the best in that latter aspect, but methinks I'm doing better nowadays. It's kinda tough, having to learn some things the hard way, but that's life for you! Now, I've kinda gotten better at handling my stressors now. ?
    Which leads me to that elephant in the room: I'm dropping out of past threads, cutting down on new threads, and focusing more on personal plots this time around. Taking up all those past threads and keeping up with them was in fact doable, truly, but I unfortunately overestimated my capacity to stay interested in all the things. It's not that those plots weren't interesting; don't get me wrong! It's just that there's only so much my writing muse can do for me, and though some once thought it of me, I'm not a machine. ? So, as I make my slow return, I'll be more particular about the future plots and threads I'll be engaging in, so I can give them my utmost writing efforts to the best of my ability. It's the least I can do for my writing partners; you all deserve the best I can give. ❤️
    By the way, I have not checked Discord yet and probably will continue not checking Discord for the foreseeable future. I'm sorry if anyone sent me any messages over there; I haven't opened it at all over these past few months! ? But please know, whatever you may have sent me, I appreciate that you have thought to interact with me at all, even when I was, y'know, away. ?
    Overly sentimental stuff aside: I'm (omw) back! I've missed you all dearly. If you would have me back in your good graces, I'd be happy to write with you all again. Gonna do some spring cleaning on my thread tracker (it's a little dusty in there!) and take over handling that character/lore garage sale @Csl was doing for me (thank you so much, bestie!), and then maybe I'll have a cup of tea and look around what's changed here in my absence some more.
    It's kinda great to be back here. ❤️
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Rabbit for a status update, Hey guys, life is starting to pick up IRL with uni work and general stuff. I'll still   
    Hey guys, life is starting to pick up IRL with uni work and general stuff. I'll still be active, but I will be slowing down for the time being. So feel free to skip me if needed. 
    ~Rabbit
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