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    Dolor Aeternum got a reaction from Thotification (Zashiii) for a status update, Lots of posts falling on my turn. Will get to them tomorrow at the earliest: 1. Illyr   
    Lots of posts falling on my turn. Will get to them tomorrow at the earliest:
    1. Illyria event
    2. Ilyana v Tharr
    3. Destruction (Tia event)
    4. Gabriela v Raylon
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    Dolor Aeternum got a reaction from Thotification (Zashiii) for a status update, Lots of posts falling on my turn. Will get to them tomorrow at the earliest: 1. Illyr   
    Lots of posts falling on my turn. Will get to them tomorrow at the earliest:
    1. Illyria event
    2. Ilyana v Tharr
    3. Destruction (Tia event)
    4. Gabriela v Raylon
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Deus Ex Aizen for a status update, I'm so tired. Mentally tired. Emotionally tired. My promotion at work comes with the   
    I'm so tired. Mentally tired. Emotionally tired. My promotion at work comes with the baggage that my manager has earned the ire of the entire team by being super disorganized--especially with time management, interrupting and ruining sales and commissions (for instance, because he butted in, I lost a total 800 dollar commission, my coworker lost the total 1k in commission [yeah, we're angry. No, nothing can be done about it]), and lack of communication. I barely even work at my other jobs these days because my schedule is being eaten up trying to clean up his messes and get us ready for the holiday rush (we're so not ready)--and also because he's procrastinated making the schedule on time like he's promised he would so my other jobs can't schedule me, which has fallen back on me and is starting to piss my other managers off. I love my team, but the discord between manager and the rest of us is going to cost us dearly--to a point they may shut down the store until they can decide who can take over what positions if the manager is let go. I'm so irritable and drained between homework, projects and tests that I'm falling way behind on all my planned projects for RP. Two more semesters, though. Two more before I graduate and can take time to breathe and recuperate. You're all amazing and patient and brilliant and I appreciate it as always. Just needed to vent and move on.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, I should write... 😒   
    I should write... 😒
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Cylewen for a status update, Two posts in 2018! This must be a new record :3   
    Two posts in 2018! This must be a new record :3
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Grubbistch for a status update, Not a great day mental health wise. Helps to write it down and talk to people about i   
    Not a great day mental health wise. Helps to write it down and talk to people about it, but sometimes I tend to make hasty assumptions about how people feel about me, which convinces me that alienating myself from them is better than actually bothering them about how they actually feel about me. 
    It's not a healthy way to live my life though, and I hope that as I grow and learn that I start to change that mindset. If someone doesn't like me or what I do, then I can't change that and I shouldn't waste energy worrying about it. All I can do is try to be my best and hope that I can show people the best part of myself because the bad parts of me I don't like a lot. 
    Yeah so that's been my head space for the day. Hope everyone else is having a better one than I.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to ourlachesism for a status update, Jumping in on the semi-AFV train for at most two weeks, as I'm headed out of the coun   
    Jumping in on the semi-AFV train for at most two weeks, as I'm headed out of the country for some much needed R&R ❤ @everyone I'm writing with—will post to all my active threads waiting on me before I go! Posting may be extremely slow while I'm away, so if I can't post by a certain timeframe, please do feel free to skip me! 😃
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    Dolor Aeternum got a reaction from -Lilium- for a status update, Appreciate the like 🙂   
    Appreciate the like 🙂
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, Let's have an affaire 😶   
    Let's have an affaire 😶
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to King for a status update, I need to speak with you about Ceyana, good sir. Get in touch with me on Discord when   
    I need to speak with you about Ceyana, good sir. Get in touch with me on Discord when you have a moment.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, You're amazing, and I love you!   
    You're amazing, and I love you! 
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to jaistlyn for a status update, When someone treats you like you’re dumb just because you’re a girl, but you secretly   
    When someone treats you like you’re dumb just because you’re a girl, but you secretly laugh at his intelligence.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, So excited to write with Raylon again! Wait until Gabriela hears him referenced to as   
    So excited to write with Raylon again! Wait until Gabriela hears him referenced to as light....she'll steal the idea and start calling herself darkness! 
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, I wrote as much as I could tonight. More posts tomorrow...   
    I wrote as much as I could tonight. More posts tomorrow...
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Garion for a status update, Beware the Slime. It is the most powerful monster!   
    Beware the Slime.
    It is the most powerful monster!
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, Tonight's nightmare: I am in the kitchen with my mother. We are talking about somethi   
    Tonight's nightmare:
     
    I am in the kitchen with my mother. We are talking about something. She's being silly while washing the fishes. Its late, we have to go to bed. She goes to turn off the light, I panic while trying to get the flashlight mode on my phone to work, "Wait, wait -- don't turn off the lights yet!" She laughs and turns off the light. This is a game we've played. It's always lighthearted. But in my dream, I am terrified. At this point, I start to feel like it's a dream. There's no way I can't figure out my phone. I try to calm myself down, I try to figurw out my phone. I see my mother's outine in the dark, she is still being playful, she urges me to go to bed. I walk down the hall and my bedroom door opens, I see Nathan's outline, he asks what we are doing, we are being loud. I don't seem to be surprised that Nathan is there, so I am back to not knowing this is a dream. I walk down the hall to thw bathroom, Nathan follows, I am still desperately trying to figure out my phone, but now all I want is to turn on the bathroom light. The dark is unsettling me. I look up, Nathan is at the door, I see another outline behind him at the end of the hall. It rushes towards me. I am sure its a dream now, but I can't change it. I am trying to turn on the light. I am trying to calm myself down. I am no longer dreaming, but I can't move. Sleep paralysis. I go through my calming down ritual, I repeat the lords prayer, it helps keep me from thinking of the nightmare I just had while I am still stuck in sleep mode. When I wake up and open my eyes, I reach for my phone and turn on the light. My heart is beating hard and fast. Feels like its going to beat right out of my chest 
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Deus Ex Aizen for a status update, In between Hyperion's Festival of Light's conclusion and Alethea's Civil War (stay tu   
    In between Hyperion's Festival of Light's conclusion and Alethea's Civil War (stay tuned for that IC), I'd like to host a fun little way to introduce the Bravot Library as an open Hot Spot for Halloween. I'm going to organize a little soiree that is open to everyone, and there will be shenanigans in store thanks to the Unseelie Court. Come mid to late September I will have an official interest check up, so all are welcome to join in!
    The Club's about to get a flurry of attention from moi, so don't hesitate to join and see what all is going down there.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Roen for a status update, I am, yet what I am none cares or knows; My friends forsake me like a memory lost: I   
    I am, yet what I am none cares or knows; 
    My friends forsake me like a memory lost: 
    I am the self-consumer of my woes— 
    They rise and vanish in oblivious host, 
    Like shadows in love’s frenzied stifled throes 
    And yet I am, and live—like vapours tossed 
    Into the nothingness of scorn and noise, 
    Into the living sea of waking dreams, 
    Where there is neither sense of life or joys, 
    But the vast shipwreck of my life’s esteems; 
    Even the dearest that I loved the best 
    Are strange—nay, rather, stranger than the rest. 
    I long for scenes where man hath never trod 
    A place where woman never smiled or wept 
    There to abide with my Creator, God, 
    And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept, 
    Untroubling and untroubled where I lie 
    The grass below—above the vaulted sky.
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to jaistlyn for a status update, Potential AFV for a few days I've been sick for the last couple days, and I will be o   
    Potential AFV for a few days
    I've been sick for the last couple days, and I will be on a long long flight later today, so I'm sorry for the missed/slow replies! Will catch up soon after! 🙂
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Malaysia NightReaver for a status update, In the midst of winter, I found there was within me an invincible summer.   
    In the midst of winter,  I found there was within me an invincible summer.  
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, Ready to open up a little event? I was thinking we could just make a thread and invit   
    Ready to open up a little event? I was thinking we could just make a thread and invite people to come and try to survive what's happening in Ceyana. You and I could play antagonistic forces. I plan to kill people using the creepy black smoke and you can have Havoc suck them into vacuums!
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to jaistlyn for a status update, Short AFV for a few days! Should be back on Monday or Tuesday 🙂   
    Short AFV for a few days! Should be back on Monday or Tuesday 🙂
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, <3   
    <3
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to jaistlyn for a status update, Third Val-Birthday! That's kind of crazy. <3   
    Third Val-Birthday!
    That's kind of crazy. <3
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    Dolor Aeternum reacted to Pasion Pasiva for a status update, <3   
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