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    Chappu got a reaction from Hurttoto for a status update, I'm not sure how this happened, I don't know what went wrong but I surely followed th   
    I'm not sure how this happened, I don't know what went wrong but I surely followed those red flags to freedom. When did the relationship get so toxic to the point I had to tell you to get out. As amazing as you are you did horrible things to me and I still begged to love you in hopes you would change your ways. Trying to be the older partner and help you learn instead of letting life's banhammer have its way with you. 
    You spit in my face repeatedly then asked me to give you the world when you did not deserve it. No matter the proclamation of your efforts you never tried to get things done until you had to do it yourself. When I cleaned my hands of taking care of the world you suddenly became what I asked of you beforehand, but too little too late for that now. Lack of honesty and disrespect that causes me to question loyalty are not what I need in this life. Even in my flaws of said 'toxic' behavior, I amended everything you asked of me but it was you who never chose to listen and take the equal steps. So please, by all means, I will wish you the best, I harbor no negative emotion because at the end of the day, no matter what you say the reality is you did nothing that you say you did. Go claim what you can to ease your soul but the facts will remain and the truth will out. 
    I wish you be best life going back to the toxic waters I fished you out from out of love and hoping for your growth. I am honored that you thanked me for treating you better than the rest of the people who abused you, I have no energy to give you a reality check on your twisted self-image that is no longer my burden to bear, life will have you now. I've climbed out of these trenches to save myself from drowning in the waters that you made to make me unstable to become myself again.  No matter, the times of change are upon us and my hands and arms can no longer carry the weight which should have been handled by you.
    So to you, I offer up wishes of peace between the inhale and the exhale may your roads be what you need to grow. May you find people who will build you and teach you what you wouldn't learn from me. I pray for your safety and that at the end of the day you regret nothing. I do not wish our paths to cross again, but maybe they will. If they should I pray you have grown to be a strong intelligent and wise young woman.
    I can finally go as I need to go and grow as I need to be, I will hold no reserves of these emotions. To do so would forbid me from being free.
    Peace...
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    Chappu got a reaction from vielle for a status update, Just gonna take this negative energy away and be alone with it till it's gone. There'   
    Just gonna take this negative energy away and be alone with it till it's gone. There's no reason to bring it around here.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, New laptop who this?   
    New laptop who this?
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    Chappu got a reaction from supernal for a status update, When you’re waiting for people to post.. this used to be easier when I wasn’t on brea   
    When you’re waiting for people to post.. this used to be easier when I wasn’t on break from classes.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Ataraxy for a status update, When you’re waiting for people to post.. this used to be easier when I wasn’t on brea   
    When you’re waiting for people to post.. this used to be easier when I wasn’t on break from classes.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, When you’re waiting for people to post.. this used to be easier when I wasn’t on brea   
    When you’re waiting for people to post.. this used to be easier when I wasn’t on break from classes.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, Death to generational curses.   
    Death  to generational curses.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, I was going to write something inspirational but I forgot what I was gonna say.   
    I was going to write something inspirational but I forgot what I was gonna say.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, Finals, one last push   
    Finals, one last push 
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    Chappu got a reaction from -Lilium- for a status update, Finals, one last push   
    Finals, one last push 
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    Chappu got a reaction from Stumbler for a status update, Swamped in class work.   
    Swamped in class work.
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    Chappu reacted to -Lilium- for a status update, Annnd just like that, I am back in business thanks to our awesome power company for p   
    Annnd just like that, I am back in business thanks to our awesome power company for placing us back on the grid this morning. They were out there earlier this morning replacing the torn down lines on our street.
    I ask again for patience,  because with power and internet coming back on I have quite a bit of classwork and essays I need to finish, a ton of laundry to wash, and a luxurious shower to take once the water heater is able to heat up.
    I will be with you Wednesday morning. Thank you guys for your kindness and support! I appreciate ya!
    <333333's
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    Chappu reacted to -Lilium- for a status update, @Rin @Chappu @Ataraxy @supernal @desolate @Deus Ex Aizen @Mickey Flash @ourlachesism   
    @Rin @Chappu @Ataraxy @supernal @desolate @Deus Ex Aizen @Mickey Flash @ourlachesism 
    And to any of you that I have not tagged that I am currently writing with and/or owe posts to.
    We have been without power since 1130pm on Thursday night, and are still waiting for it to come back on. Unfortunately, even with a generator, we need to keep that usage low just in case this continues on. Also keeping the data usage on my phone to a minimum for school use and contacting my neighbors and family.
    I will be back soon. Hopefully sooner than later. Thank you all for you patience and understanding at this time. I'll catch you on the flip siiiide!
    <333333's
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    Chappu got a reaction from Stumbler for a status update, ❤️ ❤️ ❤️   
    ❤️❤️❤️
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    Chappu got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, When you favorite guild for your pc game falls apart. Welp no need to go back now is   
    When you favorite guild for your pc game falls apart. Welp no need to go back now is there..
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    Chappu reacted to Alexei for a status update, Cooking up a unique addition to the artifact system of Terrenus for Kadia specific ar   
    Cooking up a unique addition to the artifact system of Terrenus for Kadia specific artifacts.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Pasion Pasiva for a status update, I remember when people used to make me happy just by existing. Now I am not happy abo   
    I remember when people used to make me happy just by existing. Now I am not happy about anything really. I can’t tell what makes me happy anymore. 
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    Chappu got a reaction from roboblu for a status update, I remember when people used to make me happy just by existing. Now I am not happy abo   
    I remember when people used to make me happy just by existing. Now I am not happy about anything really. I can’t tell what makes me happy anymore. 
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    Chappu got a reaction from supernal for a status update, Its funny how people who do you dirty think it’s ok just to walk back into your life   
    Its funny how people who do you dirty think it’s ok just to walk back into your life like nothing happened. No it’s not ok, you’re dead to me for a reason stay in your lane. That tomb stone is permenant.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Thotification for a status update, Just wanted to let you all know I am alive. That wedding last night was fucking lit.   
    Just wanted to let you all know I am alive. That wedding last night was fucking lit. Scored a lot of alcohol.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Ataraxy for a status update, Just wanted to let you all know I am alive. That wedding last night was fucking lit.   
    Just wanted to let you all know I am alive. That wedding last night was fucking lit. Scored a lot of alcohol.
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    Chappu got a reaction from Alexei for a status update, September 20th 2018. Today was one of my proudest days as a Godfather! I proudly stan   
    September 20th 2018.
    Today was one of my proudest days as a Godfather! I proudly stand by all seven of my God Daughters and I’m proud of every single one of them. Today’s shining star is my eldest one, eighteen and a fighter. Now I know some people here do not condone violence, well please keep your opinion in yourself. While I am not one to fight needlessly I will always train them to defend themselves from the monsters of society. In today’s day and age I have taught each a mix of martial arts on a traditional level. Which means they don’t pull punches like the sports kind. If they want to hurt you they will do it right and it will only take one go.Today my eldest was assaulted on camera in the lunchroom at her school. This chump was one of the schools “Model students” who played varsity football. He decided it’d be okay to grope her in front of all his friends in the lunch room. Surprise mother fucker.. my baby girl broke not just his wrist but his arm as well when he did not get the message to let her go. They threatened to expel her for defending herself against some perverted filmed star athlete. Well not today dude, when I arrived with full force the ruling was over turned upon further investigation that the parents  tried to pay to have covered up. The school straightened out and suspended her for violence which is fine, but the scouts who were sent to view the kid instantly turned him down and he was expelled. I don’t give a fuck if you’re President makes you feel entitled to grab women. Understand that she is someone else’s relative and loved one and we will not longer let them go unprotected or unable to protect themselves. Be careful Little rapist boys, I may have all girls and they may be my Babies but they will give you hell before they let you treat them like some sort of solution for your fucking problem. Be happy it is they who break you for they are more merciful.But anyways, I cannot wait to take her on vacation for her good work. That’s my story.
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    Chappu got a reaction from roboblu for a status update, September 20th 2018. Today was one of my proudest days as a Godfather! I proudly stan   
    September 20th 2018.
    Today was one of my proudest days as a Godfather! I proudly stand by all seven of my God Daughters and I’m proud of every single one of them. Today’s shining star is my eldest one, eighteen and a fighter. Now I know some people here do not condone violence, well please keep your opinion in yourself. While I am not one to fight needlessly I will always train them to defend themselves from the monsters of society. In today’s day and age I have taught each a mix of martial arts on a traditional level. Which means they don’t pull punches like the sports kind. If they want to hurt you they will do it right and it will only take one go.Today my eldest was assaulted on camera in the lunchroom at her school. This chump was one of the schools “Model students” who played varsity football. He decided it’d be okay to grope her in front of all his friends in the lunch room. Surprise mother fucker.. my baby girl broke not just his wrist but his arm as well when he did not get the message to let her go. They threatened to expel her for defending herself against some perverted filmed star athlete. Well not today dude, when I arrived with full force the ruling was over turned upon further investigation that the parents  tried to pay to have covered up. The school straightened out and suspended her for violence which is fine, but the scouts who were sent to view the kid instantly turned him down and he was expelled. I don’t give a fuck if you’re President makes you feel entitled to grab women. Understand that she is someone else’s relative and loved one and we will not longer let them go unprotected or unable to protect themselves. Be careful Little rapist boys, I may have all girls and they may be my Babies but they will give you hell before they let you treat them like some sort of solution for your fucking problem. Be happy it is they who break you for they are more merciful.But anyways, I cannot wait to take her on vacation for her good work. That’s my story.
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    Chappu got a reaction from roboblu for a status update, See you later Space Cowboy.   
    See you later Space Cowboy.
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    Chappu got a reaction from roboblu for a status update, In truth I am very afraid of every day I wake up. Fear creeps beneath my skin like bl   
    In truth I am very afraid of every day I wake up. Fear creeps beneath my skin like blood flows, any minute now this world could be my enemy. Somewhere along the way something about my self confidence fell through the floor.. Daily I shake with hands out stretched doing one task after the other but the fear never goes away. I feel the safest when I’m away from people.. Somewhere where nature is my background because I’ve come closer to earth and buried six feet deep than I have with bridging the mental gap between my god child and I. Maybe it’s my imagination but this tearing feeling in my gut is a justification to modify my observation.. I’m dying very slowly and I don’t know from what.. Is it the poison of a society I do not understand? The burning press of principle keeps me on my feet. Lately days have begun to blend together, it’s crazy because my sleep goes with them. Lacking in the ability to rest I am restless like a sleep walker dreaming in reality daily. I dare not quit and build a habit that was never meant to hold me back but why am I so afraid.. I’ve had some run ins with would be assassins on my person but my body is stronger than their resolve how soon till it’s a gun point I can not tell.. All I know is if I stay to long with nature no one will hear me die.. If I stay in the city I’ll just be another dark skinned removed from a system that doesn’t exactly want us. I never saw racism so vividly till I tried to help someone get to a building.. I will never forget the words nor the look in their eyes.. A look I see every day anyone drives by and sees the complexion of my skin as if they’ve never seen it before. It is ignorant it is infuriating.. It scares me.. Even when I come home and stay in my bed I can do nothing for hours and let the moon pass me by. It’s no longer safe to sit beneath her beams and even within my own room I do not feel.. Safe.. How long till it’s over..? - Safe. -Xavier Hunter 
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