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Posts TODAY! Get ready nerds

Posts TODAY! Get ready nerds

It's what we know we aren't that makes us who we are.

Merry Christmas nerds

Merry Christmas nerds

I just played a league of legends game with a guy called UrsaMedium lol

WHEW! 1 last paper to just wrap up (footnotes are a pain) and 1 final on Thursday... THEN IM DONE! This semester has been friggin work man. Remind me NOT to overload on credits again lmao

Motivation is so hard to find in yourself sometimes. A moment, a single moment of procrastination can lead to hours and then days. It's so much easier to do nothing, than to do literally anything. Even if you really want to do something, your body sometimes feels like not doing it at all. For no reason. Or at least no clear reason. Then time flies and the stress builds up, and the more stress builds up, the LESS you want to catch up because it just ends up creating a mountain to do. Then the mountain falls on you like an avalanche and all you can do is run and scramble to avoid being crushed by the sheer weight of it all. 
And sometimes you know that you can not only outrun the avalanche but climb the mountain, and yet when you look for the motivation you realize you ran out it during the time you took running from it. Then it's like, ok next time I want do it again, but when next time comes you're body and mind are just like naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah it worked out in the end, sort of. 
Right up until when there's an avalanche you can't run from anymore. 
It's like, not to quote the meme, but JUST FUCKING DO IT. You're never gonna FEEL like doing it, so JUST DO IT. 
Ironically, I'm typing this as a way to run from the building avalanche that is law school deadlines. 
I'm not complaining, I chose to do this. It's more of a self-chastising introspection that I just kinda wanted to write out. 

Motivation is so hard to find in yourself sometimes. A moment, a single moment of procrastination can lead to hours and then days. It's so much easier to do nothing, than to do literally anything. Even if you really want to do something, your body sometimes feels like not doing it at all. For no reason. Or at least no clear reason. Then time flies and the stress builds up, and the more stress builds up, the LESS you want to catch up because it just ends up creating a mountain to do. Then the mountain falls on you like an avalanche and all you can do is run and scramble to avoid being crushed by the sheer weight of it all. 
And sometimes you know that you can not only outrun the avalanche but climb the mountain, and yet when you look for the motivation you realize you ran out it during the time you took running from it. Then it's like, ok next time I want do it again, but when next time comes you're body and mind are just like naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah it worked out in the end, sort of. 
Right up until when there's an avalanche you can't run from anymore. 
It's like, not to quote the meme, but JUST FUCKING DO IT. You're never gonna FEEL like doing it, so JUST DO IT. 
Ironically, I'm typing this as a way to run from the building avalanche that is law school deadlines. 
I'm not complaining, I chose to do this. It's more of a self-chastising introspection that I just kinda wanted to write out. 

Motivation is so hard to find in yourself sometimes. A moment, a single moment of procrastination can lead to hours and then days. It's so much easier to do nothing, than to do literally anything. Even if you really want to do something, your body sometimes feels like not doing it at all. For no reason. Or at least no clear reason. Then time flies and the stress builds up, and the more stress builds up, the LESS you want to catch up because it just ends up creating a mountain to do. Then the mountain falls on you like an avalanche and all you can do is run and scramble to avoid being crushed by the sheer weight of it all. 
And sometimes you know that you can not only outrun the avalanche but climb the mountain, and yet when you look for the motivation you realize you ran out it during the time you took running from it. Then it's like, ok next time I want do it again, but when next time comes you're body and mind are just like naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah it worked out in the end, sort of. 
Right up until when there's an avalanche you can't run from anymore. 
It's like, not to quote the meme, but JUST FUCKING DO IT. You're never gonna FEEL like doing it, so JUST DO IT. 
Ironically, I'm typing this as a way to run from the building avalanche that is law school deadlines. 
I'm not complaining, I chose to do this. It's more of a self-chastising introspection that I just kinda wanted to write out. 

Would you rather live a day as a god, or forever as a business tycoon?

People who don't lock their doors are so weird

If you get a chance to take a nap, do it!

The artist who drew all my Lilith art is on hiatus because of COVID so I'm trying to find a new artist but she spoiled me and I got used to her skill and prices that all the offers I get (off site) just don't match up. Sad times for ataraxy and lilith. T.T I guess no more holiday themed chibis for the time being 

When I'm talking to a girl I've never met and she goes "Oh! You're Alex [Insert last name]" I am filled with both pride and fear lmao it's cool she knows my name but howwwwww??
School reputations are quite something

TV shows always break the car's front window to steal it. Why not back window? Avoid sitting on glass???

TV shows always break the car's front window to steal it. Why not back window? Avoid sitting on glass???

I've recently taken up an interest in classical music—or, well, more of an interest than I once had before. 🙈 I like to think music transports us to other worlds the way roleplaying does, just in different methods, so today, I just wanted to share one of my favorite pieces from Ravel. Might not be everybody's cup of tea, but I dunno, you might wanna feel like you're out at sea at the moment; this can help you out there. 😂
 

I like your avatar! Fire Emblem fan?

You want what you can't have, but can't handle what you do have

"I demand poetry."
"Your breasts... They are below your throat!"
-A Knight's Tale
I died laughing
 

"I demand poetry."
"Your breasts... They are below your throat!"
-A Knight's Tale
I died laughing
 

Fun fact, lunatic comes from the fact that full moons bring out the nutjobs

An ant has no quarrel with a boot

Whenever I think back to high school and compare it with people's stories, there always seems to be a lack of bullies or just general meanness. Makes me think if that's because I was the mean one. Sad to think about